ALONE WITH ME

This is going to be unrealistic to many

But because people around me are swinging

Doesn’t mean I should present my face to be smashed

Discouragement tempt me every day and yet I resist

Do I have nothing to show for a life of hard work?

The world has beaten me to my knees

But I still don’t take any shit from nobody

Because I have a God who motivates and helps me to stand up back

O just God, you are too merciful

This is not a contradiction; I can’t just understand it

I have gone against moral legislation

But he shows me no iniquity of mine is above his compassion

I have thrown my innocence to the gaming board

With less chances of winning it back

Every once in a while I catch myself doing this

I’m on it again today, but in a different fashion

I recycle my thoughts and emotions

It is like somebody hit the pause button in my life and I stopped growing

But how could it be? I carry my own remote

Oh! I lost that innocence I had as a little boy

Because I gambled with it

Sometimes I forget I’m alive and switch to auto mood (mode)

But when I wake up from that dormant stage

Beauty awaits and love beckons

It becomes a privilege and challenge to get back to normal living

Events speed up and I lost track of the forest

Because I am forced to dodge all the trees

But the grace of God is just too superb

I dive off boards without even checking if there is water in the pool

Because the grace of God will always provide the water

But notwithstanding, when I’m lost, I’m lost

It is all about my simple stubbornness

This is also about the conviction everyone else know less than I do

Wanting to be right is only a problem if I can’t accept being wrong

I get lost a lot; I have no natural sense of direction

But I dedicate this to the possibility that I may be wrong about something I feel so sure of

I don’t entertain this, but this certainly does entertain me

The Lord has written the Pater Noster in my heart

He has made my life so beautiful

When I look back to me, I can’t help but burst

Burst into what? Tears? Joy? That is not important

God takes care of everything, even when I forget to ask

God’s grace has been super abundant

It is just like a river over my head

A mass of water no one can possibly walk through

I’m about to burst again

I can’t keep quiet about me

I can’t thank Mary and her Son enough

I always feel this way when I’m not able to appreciate God enough

I’m thrilled and terrified, I’m on my bed but I can’t sleep

So I get up and pick my pen

I feel so much energy, I’m afraid I may get myself electrocuted

Many times God’s love over me leaves me no choice

Who am I that My Lord calls me by name? ZIMIFE

The old life is gone; this is the dawn of a new one

I live in a universe subjected to rules

Some of them I know, others I don’t

But I am a free chooser living among other free choosers

Other free choosers who sometimes choose the wrong

I have a life that is like a time bomb

One day it will certainly go off

But as long as I’m beeping, I will keep thanking God

If I entertain any other fantasy more than the life God gave me

The gods will be disappointed in me

Beyond my limitations that chaff and burn

I also experience the call to transcendence

I’m certainly not worthless in the eyes of my God

Because he created me for a purpose; there is no spare me

I am not destined to wind up on the cutting room floor of history

I won’t throw away the gift and privilege of my life

By spending my days like they don’t matter

Well, I’m sorry for all the times I intended more harm than good

For all the times I used people and loved things

It is certainly gone days now, everything is all changed

I didn’t do this alone, in fact I couldn’t

I’ve repented of them, repaired and renewed them

Grace made it all possible

This same grace makes me a bit player in the stage of history

Passionate God I commit to you all the sorrows of my heart

Mend what is broken, heal what is wounded and save what is lost